dreaming

there are days when I'm reminded why I can't work a normal job.
The worst part is when I have dreams reminding me of that. But...the house is clean, the laundry is done, bills are paid.
I know I'm useful...I just wish I could feel that way. Bringing in money has always made me feel good. And on good days I wonder why I'm not working. Then I have a bad day and I can't function at all.

And starting next week on top of my PT I'll have a load of fertility treatments. No employer (even part time) wants to work around that.
I tell myself it's worth it. It is...