Saturday, April 4, 2009

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I haven't felt like talking too much lately. There is nothing like having to beg your friends for their hand me downs. Or beg crafty people you know to make stuff for your baby.

Since Nortel is Bankrupt, Ben didn't get any severance. And because he made "too much" Monday and Tuesday he didn't qualify for unemployment this week. He needs to call Monday...but we know that money isn't going to be much. And we get screwed on low cost health insurance because he made "too much" so far this year.

We've been doing our best to stretch our budget and look for ways to save. I've taken lots of things to the consignment shop, given Ben several of my Tiffany jewelry peices to sell on Ebay. Plus we're putting stuff up on craiglist and only buying clearance item baby things. I'm also trying to knit a bunch of things for the baby to help save money.

It's scary and I find myself depressed most days because I'm worried. I'm also finding I'm really annoyed with people who say "things will be fine"
No, they aren't fine, and unless you can guarantee to me that it will be ok that line is just annoying. Millions of Americans are not ok. Ben and I will do everything and anything to protect our child. We know we'll most likely have to sell the condo. We may also have to move...another thing I really didn't want to do, least of all while I'm pregnant.

I see so many people complaining about little things in their life. Sometimes I wish they could see what there really is to complain about.

5 comments:

Lady in Waiting said...

I hear ya...but quite possibly some of the people who complain may have crap going on that is equivalent. It DOES suck...(and don't shoot me) but it WILL be ok. You had mentioned that you could move back to western mass, at least you have parents to fall back on, it is more than some people have. I know it isn't much but it's the only positive I could come up with...chin up lady, depression can't be healthy for your baby. (That alone is reason to smile, love is free!)

teawithfrodo said...

1: we can't move back to Western Mass. The family house was just rented out. So that's shot.
2: Really, you can guarantee me it's going to get better? Can you pay our mortgage?
3: The fetus can handle depression and stress. If it couldn't then no one would be able to successfully carry a baby.
4: Your last post you bitched about being 25. Then you whined about how you hated that you didn't have a baby yet and weren't pregnant. I really had to stop myself from saying STFU. Really, people who decide they have to be married or have a child by a certain age have fucked up priorities.

I really wasn't going to say anything nasty, but I've already posted that I was in a bad mood...and said that unless you can guarantee things will get better to not say anything.
But then again you didn't want people to tell you that 25 wasn't old. Pot...have a kettle to the head.

and love may be free...but the rest of the world takes money.

Lady in Waiting said...

Wow, I'm really glad I didn't see this right away because then I would have said something bitchy. Your life isn't the only one in the shitter so maybe you need to STFU as well...you have had a few posts where I had to stop myself from saying anything honest to you because you have said repeatedly that you don't like when people judge you, it's hard for you to be open, blah blah blah. Ya know what, I had a life plan but things don't always go the way we want them to. So I feel old, bite me, I'm allowed to feel old. So I wanted to be pregnant around a certain age, did you ever stop to think there might be a reason for that? Because there is, it's not some arbitrary notion.And you want to talk fucked up priorities?
At least I don't assume people should buy things for my child cuz honestly honey, if you couldn't afford everything the baby needs when Ben was working, you should never have gotten pregnant. Sorry, but it's the truth. So I may not be pregnant but I'm happy I'm not because right now, J and I would be more fucked than we already are. With that, I am signing off because you are just not someone I can associate with any longer. Oh and feel free to bitch about me in your journals.
Good luck with the baby and everything else, since you don't think things will get better you need a ll the luck you can get!

teawithfrodo said...

actually we could afford things on our registry 3 times over
however now we are going to pay our mortgage. So the money we saved up will go elsewhere to make sure we have a home.
Our child will never be wanting.

But you..yeah, you want a child by 25 and feel old.
That's more of an issue.
And it's funny to me...
because at 25 you named yourself and old hag.

Lady in Waiting said...

Wow, I'm really glad I didn't see this right away because then I would have said something bitchy. Your life isn't the only one in the shitter so maybe you need to STFU as well...you have had a few posts where I had to stop myself from saying anything honest to you because you have said repeatedly that you don't like when people judge you, it's hard for you to be open, blah blah blah. Ya know what, I had a life plan but things don't always go the way we want them to. So I feel old, bite me, I'm allowed to feel old. So I wanted to be pregnant around a certain age, did you ever stop to think there might be a reason for that? Because there is, it's not some arbitrary notion.And you want to talk fucked up priorities?
At least I don't assume people should buy things for my child cuz honestly honey, if you couldn't afford everything the baby needs when Ben was working, you should never have gotten pregnant. Sorry, but it's the truth. So I may not be pregnant but I'm happy I'm not because right now, J and I would be more fucked than we already are. With that, I am signing off because you are just not someone I can associate with any longer. Oh and feel free to bitch about me in your journals.
Good luck with the baby and everything else, since you don't think things will get better you need a ll the luck you can get!