sleep

I'm doing my best to listen to my body...
however the sleep thing is making me nutty.

I get tired around 9pm...so I go to bed...at about 2am in the morning I can no longer sleep. I'm semi tired, but just can't stay in bed.

So here I am, on the computer...it's better then tossing and turning and keeping Ben awake.

I'm Pregnant

so...
yesterday I puked in the morning
then just went and ate breakfast. The doctor says this is a good sign...I seem to have lots of good signs...

no spotting or bleeding at all...
cramps, a change in my waist line, and morning sickness (even if it has just been the once)
They said that some women have morning sickness as early as 1 week after implantation.

I'm trying not to get too excited...we still have 2 days until we know.
But the signs are there....

I can make it...I swear I can...

we want this so badly...

YAAAAAAARN

I got a gift certificate to WEBS...so on the way home from the In laws we went.
I have restocked my yarn stash with many nice things...
can't wait to knit it all.

what is with these cravings?
I'm not a big bacon eater...but I've wanted a lot of it lately.
Things I normally like to eat make me queasy to smell...and I randomly want corn beef hash.

I don't want to jinx anything...

As many people who see me in etsy chat know last night Ben and I watched the upstairs neighbors children.
Baby Joey (short for Josephine) had a cold and did not really want to do anything but cry. Since I'm not allowed to lift things heavier then 10 pounds right now Ben had to hold her all night.

3 out of 4

One more glove to go.
And yes, I am wearing glasses, I was reading. Lots of people assume I wear colored contacts.

mitten status

glove 3 0f 4 is almost done. I'm start the thumb now and then the flap. If I don't finish it tonight it will be done tomorrow morning.
It would be nice to get them to the post office before Christmas, but it doesn't really matter, so I'm not going to worry.

The snow just changed to icy rain. At least I don't have to be anywhere tomorrow. And I have lots of knitting to do.

I'm cramped...but everything I read says that cramping is not only normal, but a good sign.

Hopefully the babies are settling in and arranging the "furniture"

convertible mittens

finished the first pair of convertible mittens last night. But I just took the picture so forgive me looking a mess.

so the asthma and post nasal drip are still bad. Ben says they are getting better, but the coughing fits and the lack of breathing is rough.

I'm on an albuterol nebulizer. Yeah...it's category C. But the doctor things that me being able to breathe out weighs the risks.
They're hoping this clears up by the end of the month. They said it should change the chances for implantation.

I have been implanted with 2 blastocysts.
The doctors said they look really good and had almost no fracturing.

now we wait until the 29th.

mitten progress

The first convertible mitten is going really quickly. I already finished the main body. I just have the thumb and the flap to do.
I'm surprised since I took a 3 hour nap today and have been drinking so much water that I keep getting up to pee.

After this pair I have another pair to make in blue. The my mother decided she has to have another pair or fingerless gloves. I gave her a discount...and she pre-paid.

Off to bed...I can't wait until Wednesday. Although tomorrow the doctors will call and give me the details.

Today I woke up to find that I had sold an item. I was pretty happy about that. I needed it.

Working on a commission, and I'll be posting pictures later tonight so the person can see the progress. I'm glad I have knitting to do so I am semi occupied.

Wednesday is implantation. And we'll know about 11 days after that if it took. I'm trying not to lose my mind. My butt is sore from the shots...I keep telling myself it will be worth it.

maybe sometime I'll be able to take new pictures from my shop.

Implantation

Implantation is Wednesday. While this means more waiting it's better for our chances of getting pregnant.

I swear, I can wait till Wednesday.

Steve and Barry's is closing...everything on sale.

I bought a torso.
This should make pictures a bit better.

CPSIA regulations

http://cpsc.gov/cpsia.pdf

this pertains to ANY children's products.
So if you wanted to cloth diaper and have natural toys you are now screwed. The implementation date being February 10, 2009

‘‘(2) THIRD PARTY TESTING REQUIREMENT.—Effective on the
dates provided in paragraph (3), before importing for consumption
or warehousing or distributing in commerce any children’s
product that is subject to a children’s product safety rule,
every manufacturer of such children’s product (and the private
labeler of such children’s product if such children’s product
bears a private label) shall—
‘‘(A) submit sufficient samples of the children’s product,
or samples that are identical in all material respects to
the product, to a third party conformity assessment body
accredited under paragraph (3) to be tested for compliance
with such children’s product safety rule; and
‘‘(B) based on such testing, issue a certificate that
certifies that such children’s product complies with the
children’s product safety rule based on the assessment
of a third party conformity assessment body accredited
to conduct such tests.
A manufacturer or private labeler shall issue either a separate
certificate for each children’s product safety rule applicable
to a product or a combined certificate that certifies compliance
with all applicable children’s product safety rules, in which
case each such rule shall be specified."

and so on...

I'm feeling a little less cramped now, and the bleeding has pretty much stopped.

Ben gave me my first Progesterone Oil shot tonight. It wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be.
Implantation will be in 3-5 days. I'm so nervous and excited.

been home for several hours...
very sore
they got 16 eggs...

did I mention I'm very sore.

Important Petition

http://www.ipetitions.com/petition/handmadetoys?e

because handmade items for children will be illegal in 2 months.
We don't have the money for testing...and this applies to all items because made for children.

more info is here
http://sites.google.com/site/handmadetoyalliance/

retrieval is Friday

I think I'm going to move over to artfire.com
I'll need to update my business cards...but I'm getting a bit tired of the crap from etsy.

looking for more commissions

I finished all 5 pairs of fingerless gloves.
I'm taking a few days to work on a shawl for my mom before working on 2 pairs of convertible mittens.
After that I don't have any commissions and I'd love to have more.
All the money I make from knitting is going into the baby account and I really like having a steady flow going into that account.

Felling better today, still getting over this sick thing.

Holy Estrogen Batman

8 measurable follicles...up from 2 on the 4th

they are thinking that I may be able to have my retrieval as early as Friday.

sick

I have the flu.

the bad news: I am VERY limited when it comes to what I can take. I have some Benedryl I can use...I'm going to take that before bed to knock me out.

the good news: this shouldn't effect my hormones or any of the retrieval options.

still...I feel like ass...which is a step up from how I felt yesterday.
Tomorrow is another ultrasound/bloodwork day.

My nose needs to stop running.

:)

Ultrasound this morning.
I have 4 follicles on the right and 5 on the left.
They are almost all big enough to be measured. So I'm responding really well to the shots. I hope things continue to go this well and we can schedule the retrieval.

and now for some knitting

I'm working on the last pair of fingerless gloves. I hate that I had to put it off due to my finger injury. Glove number 9 is almost done...hoping to finish gloves 10 tomorrow...

I then have 2 pairs of convertible mittens to do.

And then I have no more commissions...
I could use more commissions to put more into the baby account.

the stupid...argh

"the way to get preggo is to forget what is it you are trying to do"

This was AFTER I stated we were doing IVF
Do people think that IVF is fun? That I like giving myself shots every day?

Why is it that people seem to think "Oh, you aren't taking the right vitamins"

I'm trying not to get frustrated when people say stupid shit like this...
but really...this isn't me just having sex and trying to have a baby. They wouldn't put me through this if there was another way to have a baby.

*sigh*

Home

flight was delayed. we got in this morning with enough time to come home, get the car and head to the doctor.
They upped the dosage on my shots. But things are going as they should.

we will sleep well tonight.