My poor sweet Aloysius

This is the face I see now.  He doesn't want to eat or drink.  He's drugged to the gills.  I sit with him and he puts his hand in my face.  This face is actually the least pain he's been in for quite a while.


I am not above begging right now.  It would break all our hearts to put him down and all agencies we are checking can't offer us any help.

Enough is enough...

Just came back from the vet.  They're pretty sure it's a ruptured disc.  He's in a great deal of pain and they've put him on steroids, pain killers and anti inflammatory meds. They've upped his dosage from last time and have one more level they can give him if this doesn't work.
We're referred to a Neurologist but can't afford the $1200 for testing.   The vet said that if we can afford the surgery there is really no point in even bothering with the testing.  He's in so much pain that if we can't afford the surgery and the meds don't work the only choice will be to put him down so he isn't in pain. 

It's hard to think that we could lose Aloysius.  I can't stand the thought of putting him down but he's in so much pain.  Sadly if the choice came between the surgery and the mortgage we need to keep a roof over Garrett's head.

I've had enough right now.  This downward spiral is maddening to all of us.

Crafting in chaos

Ben was sweet and brought me back a gift from Wilmington.  Sadly he only had the airport to shop at so I got a t-shirt.   I don't wear t-shirts and this one was massive. 
I've seen several tutorials online for Upcycled T-shirt bags.  It's pretty easy and despite all the stress I needed to craft something simple.  

You can see just how huge the shirt is

This will make a great travel laundry bag.  Or even a bag for Garrett's toys if we move.   Now the question of what to do with the sleeves.   They fit perfectly as bandanas.  I'll probably end up embroidering them so they aren't so boring.

Forgive the tired look.  I've been under stress lately.

I wish I could be a rubberband girl

Oh last night was indeed a saga for both myself and Ben. 
The first part of his flight went off without a hitch.  He flew into LaGuardia airport with no problem.  His connecting flight to Wilmington was delayed.  Then delayed some more, and more and canceled.  The next flight out from LGA that would get him there was Monday evening.  Now Ben is getting a bit panicked and I'm on the phone with him.  

His first idea was to rent a car and drive the 10 hours down there.  (This was at 10:30pm Sunday night).  There is only 1 car rental company that has 1 way cars available for that distance.  He gets to the counter and they tell him that he can't use his debit card.  We don't have any credit cards since declaring bankruptcy.  We just got our tax return so we ask them if they could just put a really large hold on the account or something.  Nope, so dejected Ben takes the shuttle back to the main terminals.

I get on the computer and call up companies at JFK and even Newark airport to see if they can rent him a car.  Then I look up the earliest flights down to Wilmington.  I find one leaving Newark at 6am with a layover in Charlotte and getting in to Wilmington at 10:30am.  I then reserve a car with budget for pick up at LGA and drop off at Newark.   (Keeping in mind that all his travel expenses will be reimbursed)
Ben calls the Budget cars from the kiosk and they tell him he needs a credit card.   I'm on the webpage and it says no such thing. So I call the LGA location and tell Ben to head over.  It turns out if he can show he flew in to LGA and is flying out of Newark they'll accept a debit card and put a $350 hold on it until the car is dropped off. 

Ben got to Newaark and even got to Wilmington at 8:30am.  He had been updating the company by voicemail all night long and they told him he was certainly the most tenacious person they had come across.


But back to last night.  It's midnight once all this is cleared up and I turned to Garrett and tell him it's finally time for us to go to bed. I'm in the middle of saying this when he projectile vomits all over the couch coating both me and himself.  I picked him up and put him in the empty bathtub in case he puked again while I stripped the couch (thank got for couch cushion covers) and threw it in the wash along with everything we were wearing.  We took a quick bath together and he fell asleep pretty quickly.   I didn't sleep. 

I swear, I didn't break any mirrors.

This is not the end, this is not the beginning

I just dropped Ben off at the airport. 
I packed his Brook's Brothers suit and his deep purple Kenneth Cole button down shirt and a silver/grey tie. I packed his shoes, tie clip and toiletries all in his garment bag so he can carry them on. It didn't have a luggage tag so I gave him one of our address labels to just stick on a paper luggage tag at the airport.

Garrett is clinging to me and I'm hoping he'll fall back asleep since he woke up when I took him from the car back into the house.

We need this so badly right now.  We'd still need to sell the condo and move but that would be a stress we could handle.

F You life!

I'm finally at liberty to post...so here goes.
My surgery that we wanted to move up has to be put off indefinitely.  Not because we want to but because Ben was laid off.  He has an interview in NC on Monday.  We're trying to downsize everything in the condo because we know that we'll have to sell.

On top of that the doctors (and Early Intervention) think Garrett has Autism.  He's high functioning like Ben is, but we need to see a developmental pediatrician.  We've been told we're doing all the right things for him but it's a hard pill to swallow.

Our world is a mess right now.

SNAFU

Due to some situations beyond our control I probably won't be blogging as much as I would like.  I'm not going to be able to keep up with my Friday series and I don't even want to write everything out. 
Needless to say the world has totally screwed up right now.