Glove 3 of 10 is now done. It's kind of hard to see the cabling on the brown tweed. But fingerless gloves are perfect for flashing gang signs.

And for the record there is nothing in the corner of my eye...it just caught a shadow.

snuggles

I guess Aloysius knows I'm feeling down...because he decided to come and nuzzle me.
Forgive the bad skin, I've been stressed.

is adsense a scam?

I've just heard from several of my friends who have had their adsense accounts shut down once they've reached $100 (which is the amount at which you get issued a payment)

Now all the friends got similar emails...saying that they are "threats" to the advertisers. No other reason...no more information then that. And they state that they reserve the right to remove any accounts.

Seems a little shady to me. You would think they would like someone who turned other people on to adsense. It doesn't really cost google anything, and they get more adwords. Plus the advertisers get more traffic to their sites.

we'll see what happens with my adsense...if they'll shut it down right before they have to pay me.

It never rains...

mom told me she has the BRCA2 Mutation
I know she feels really bad because I have so much on my plate right now.
I told her I knew this was going to be the result and I'm pretty sure when I get tested for it I'll have the mutation as well. (Her birth mother died from Breast Cancer as well)

I have to contact both my Breast Specialist and my Reproductive Endocrinologist to let them know.
It's scary because now I'm a such a high risk for so many types of Cancer.

This is my chance to have a child...because most likely after 35 they'll want to remove my uterus and ovaries to prevent any cancer.

I just got another commission, and possibly a custom sale on Etsy.

One set of fingerless gloves is done.
Four more to go.

I am taking a break to make myself a new washcloth tonight. I'm averaging a glove a day, so I'm not too worried.
After that I have a hat, 2 pairs of fingerless/convertible mittens and another pair of fingerless gloves (if the etsy sale goes through)

so much knitting to do, but the extra money to put away towards IVF is good.

I was just thinking about how less then 5 months ago Ben and I had our forms in to adopt. We were set on adopting a foster child and were waiting to schedule a home study.
Then mom got Breast Cancer. Mom was 9 when her birth mother died from Breast Cancer, so it was that much more terrifying for her.
She had just decided to retire. That's when dad got sick...11 years ago...when he had retired. He died from Leukemia 9 months after he was diagnosed.

Mom was lucky, they caught it early and only needed to do a lumpectomy. I stayed with her for 2 weeks to help her out. She didn't lift, bend, pull, push or do much of anything. I know it was hard for her, but I made sure to do things before she tried or needed to ask.

She then had radiation. And she'll need to be taking pills for about 5 years. She still hates that she has to go to the Oncologist for the rest of her life, but she's happy to have a rest of her life.

So...
after all of this I came back home. Sat down with Ben...and said...I think maybe, just maybe I want to try for a baby.
Now previously we had been told that it wasn't really going to happen. I wish I could go back and kick that doctor in the nards.

While the journey has been rough, and we can only afford the once chance right now, we still have that chance.

I can't really describe what changed in my mind. But when it did it was all we could think about.
I guess the thought of losing my only living parent just set something off in my mind and body.

Lean mean knitting machine

the hat and mittens set is finished.
I bought the yarn for the 5 pairs of fingerless gloves. I'm going to run them by the buyer when I see her Wednesday. Until then I'm working on a shawl for my mother's holiday gift.

Once Tom gets back from his honeymoon he'll tell me which hat pattern he wants and then I can buy the yarn for that as well. Once all the gloves are done I can take some more commissions.